December?

Hello December. It's the end of 2020.

I've been at home for so long already because of covid 19. Idk anymore if we need to live w pandemic for years...yeah probably now it does not affect me except my postponement of clinical year. Dah berapa kali tangguh, and now dah bulan 12. It's okay, after all ada hikmah. it's just that...i cant stay at home for too long, my mental health just cant take it. i've been feeling depressed and wasted my time just like that. and to be honest, i need to keep myself busy for me to get rid of these lethargic feeling. Yeah ppl would perceived me lazy, but actually it's just not i'm lazy, i just dont have energy to keep going. idk what reason for me to push myself. and now i'm trying :'). i've been living like this for years and idk how ppl perceived me..yeah i stresseda lot, especiallly during my fyp. i dont even know actually how i survived a year for that. Despite all the tears and lonely journey, i managed to get excellent result. Probably lecturers just give A to all my classmates. as long we had finished the assessment. maybe..

i dont know what i want rn. maybe i just want to go back to uia. just maybe...even though i'm totally not ready for my clinical..just hoping things will be smooth for my last year.